Dancing With Fire /Flowing With the Tide

Another dance in the ring of fire, another flow in the ripples of waters, this is my journey. How alarming the tide maybe, I still have to conjure up enough strength from yesterday’s journey to endure the boundless journey ahead of me.

There will never/ ever be a day of complete utter rest, but when rest decides to knock at your door, open it quickly and take all that it has to offer for you do not know how long it intends to visit. Remember how blissful it feels, how amazingly the sun feels against your skin, how intimate the touch of the wind curves through every curvature of your being, the serenity the sound of nature brings, but also, remember that it can be gone within an instant.

The ring of fire

In the ring of fire, there are many many things that can and will destroy you. There are trials and many roads with many intersections. There are things that are seen and things that are not seen, but with your spirit there to guide you, you can defeat any enemy, but first, you must allow it access/ access to your reasonings and your logics, in which cripples it.

There is always a surge of answers that awaits for you in the dark, it has always been accessible and near, but many are too afraid to look there because there is where your truth resides. The truth bares a lot of weight that some are not willing to carry. The answers are always and forever inside you, never too far from your treasure.

Your walk in the ring of fire is your walk alone. No one else can walk this journey for you, yet, many will try to come along, but the road was never meant for them to travel the distance.

For the last ten months, I had given up on everything that I hold dear to my heart to follow a dream that did not come with any instructions/ any roadmap. I fought very hard for gain, independence, and accessibility when the treasure itself was always near. The treasure resided in me and has always been there. Even though the journey has been extremely intense, I do not regret one second of it, because I gained more treasure than I started out with/ more knowledge and more understanding. I must continue to walk this journey, even though no one understands, sometimes, even I don’t understand, but I must.

Why must my past torment me so? How long will the agony last this time? The answers before were always destructive and critical, but now I see. I see the answer itself unfold.

The answer was never about blaming or condemning but about realization unfolding itself through choices that I have made. No matter the choice, I was always going to learn the lesson sooner or later. Your choices do matter, so choose wisely of your next step, because there are trenches that are way bigger than your will to jump and roads too hideous to look upon, but if you lighten your load of doubt and fear, your strength will be your sword.

The flow of water

Living has never been such an easy walk for anyone. There are many rough terrains that we walk on daily striving to live up to the world’s standards/ trying to find our place in the world, but the world has its own agenda.

The worlds’ standard has killed our own uniqueness and therefore, our reasoning and logic has become more rigid than ever. I have tried to live up to the worlds’ standards and later came to realize that a part of me was dying to live.

The most beautiful, creative, adventurous part of me was begging to dance upon the velvet stage/ ready to explore the vast opportunities embedded in my imaginations that I have been holding captive. All of my imaginations that I once had, taunted me with no compassion. My heart danced with sorrow while my mind laughed vigorously and intently.

When the waves come, and they will come, understand that it comes with a purpose/ with a goal in mind. The only way to win is to understand the nature of the wave and flow with it instead of against it. There will always be a battle, but it always begins in your mind first. You must subjugate the battle inside of you firstly, before conquering the battle outside of you.

Take the ugliness that presents itself to you and make it beautiful

I worked at a company that suffocated the creative parts of me and the only thing that kept me going was the phrase: Take the ugliness that presents itself to me and make it beautiful

This phrase was definitely translations from my spirit.

I understand now that a true leader can never step down to be a follower/ ever. I took everything that I needed from the tide that presented itself to me and I learned from it. I rode with the current and befriended it. I changed my thoughts to fit my circumstance, and even though I adapted to the change, I never once conformed. I evolved into something much much more.

Learn from the waves what it teaches and apply it to your journey that awaits in front of you. Learn quickly so that you will become the teacher the next time you or a loved one is faced with it. The wave is your strengthener so take all that it gives and never underestimate the power that you gain from perseverance. Sometimes the roar of the wave is all that you need to feel alive, but for others, it takes a whole lot more.

Learn to listen to what your essential parts of yourself are revealing to you. Feel everything you need to feel but be very cautious of what you show to others, for they can easily use what you feel to their own advantage, and you will pay immensely for it.

Learn to accept the mountains that lie in front of you and take all the treasures and truths it bares leaving nothing behind, not even a morsel. Take it with you wherever you journey with your cup overflowing with plunder for everyone.

Use the elements of fire and water to strengthen you. These elements have been here for billions and billions of light years. Take the energy that it brings and build your fountains/ build your reality. Love yourself enough to challenge your thinking and to see things far greater than what you see as your reflection.