Dakota
A poem of protest
How beautiful must the world be to make me stop and notice I am a narcissist? I’m so far away from the plains, the rolling weeds and sagebrush, dirt-dry plateaus cracked like ancient faces. I’m so far away from open fields stretched equidistant to every inch of the empty and aubergine horizon; the sky seems endless as a child’s imagination, white puffy clouds like floating castles turning purple and gray along the dust bowl rim, with rain shaft ropes tethering those mountainous zeppelins to the Earth.
How beautiful must the world be to make me care about the future my children will live to see? Some hold onto hope like eagle feathers in their hands, have seen the stars through a portal of smoke cloaked in a buffalo’s hide. They have stood for centuries at the edge of a graveyard, watching the white man dig more holes.
How beautiful must the world be to make me want to live here inside its nebular womb? With every breath, the timeline of existence shrinks backward one step. In my heart, I could wear a headdress, I could smell the burnt leaves wafting like spirits around my skull, like voices turned to ashes swirling and sticking to my tongue. I could sing songs around the fire in a language I never learned.
How beautiful must the world be that I shut off these engines of dinosaur teeth, that I throw my hardhat to the ground and climb down from my mechanical cage, that I brush the crushed grit from my jeans and embrace the joyful tears streaming down my face with so many arms around me, welcoming me home like a long lost son, turning to stand in line against something as intangible as time?
How beautiful must the world be that I admit I’ve always been wrong about everything I’ve ever believed? This world must be beautiful, with its birds, its light-flickered murmurations, its ponds with surfaces kissed by hungry fish mouths catching flies. It’s a beauty that never asks to be observed, and that is just what makes it so irreplaceable.






