Coerce Fear To Be Your Friend In 28 Years (Limited Friend Spots)

Step one: take a hit of dopamine (liquid)

When there’s no movement in my life, same thing day after day, I get irritated. Recently, I turned 28 and I’ve realized I didn’t have as much experience as I wanted.

A need is born to change it no matter what. The adrenaline rushes through my blood — dopamine hit from the motivation.

Right now, at this moment, I have the power to move mountains.

But there’s one thing hindering my growth.

In the vague sense, it’s people.

But not quite.

Growing pains

The regret plays a big part in my life.

There are a lot of mistakes that I’ve made, I’m sure I will make a lot more.

Not taking chances is the biggest pitfall of it all.

It’s the way I could have achieved something — build a lot more.

The words “I could have” clenched my heart. It’s never going to be achieved and maybe I’d be in a different phase in my life than now if I did something…

No more wondering or confusion.

Clarity sounds wonderful but I realize not a lot of people have that.

Why don’t I have that?

I simply am the fear impersonated.

Fear has permission to make decisions in my head. I am not in control and I hate it.

Honestly?

It’s mostly people. Their opinions haunt me — I wouldn’t think too much about the mistakes I made if people weren’t there to witness them.

The thing is — it’s all feedback. That’s an important thing for a creator.

(For the sake of this article, let’s say I’m labeling myself as a creator. Creator or writer, same thing.)

If I ignore other people, I ignore the way to success. What works is the right path. And what “works” is what people pay attention to.

How do you separate the voices from your decisions and when it’s time to give them the stage?

Doomsday (or is it rebirth?)

On my 28th birthday, I woke up and wrote four A4 pages on what’s wrong with my life right now.

I want to change and I’ve wanted that since last year’s December. There was a day in that month when I decided to change my life and really try to live the way I wanted to.

I can’t say I devoted myself to it.

It’s been almost a year and while I did have a breakthrough — I’m doing a lot more than I would’ve without that decision — I’m not where I want to be.

Not yet.

My actions are too passive, I wrote in my journal. If I want to create a life worth living then I need to do it more actively.

And then the motto for my 29th year this year was born:

Do it scared.

I’m scared of a lot of things. I’m scared to let my opinion known and be laughed off.

I don’t want to be a joke when I’m not joking.

But if you don’t try then you won’t ever succeed. That’s what everyone knows, it’s like you get this lesson the moment you’re out of the womb.

I will turn fear into my friend.

Toying with the idea that you’re scared because you care, I’ll care a lot. I will make myself care about things that I didn’t before. I will do them while caring strongly.

The biggest tool that I have is my voice.

And I will make it shine.

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