Clumsy Fingers
On a Delicate Mission

Tinkering with the Infinite — dull finite tools my clumsy fingers
Wrestling with Infinity, trying to pin it down as a concept, using dull, finite thoughts. This is a tough, if not outright impossible proposition.
The Buddhist canon, at least the part that I have read (and continue to read — which includes the four main books in the Sutta Pitaka, along with much Theravada and Mahayana commentary) seems to internally agree on this one point: the infinite (and other beyond the beyond concepts, like Nirvana, the Undying, the Ungenerated, the Uncreated, the Unconditioned, et al. — all dancing synonyms, meaning the same thing) cannot be grasped by the normal, thinking, discriminating human mind — those clumsy fingers.
If you think you’ve got it, the ancients seem to agree, you haven’t got it.
I must agree, for that’s what I feel my thoughts are: clumsy fingers. Dull finite tools. Not made to solve eternal mysteries.
Now, the Tibetan tradition begs to differ. Tsongkhapa, for one, has even gone so far as to ridicule those (Indians at the time — fourteenth century C.E.) who believed that all you really had to do to reach Nirvana was truly to venture beyond thought, normal human-mind, ego-mind, stuff thought, and into the deep (some add, bright) stillness beyond.
Tsongkhapa et al. were masters at discriminating reason, thousands and thousands of books worth of it — to prove that all things are empty.
Dogen, in turn disagrees with Tsongkhapa. If you can truly transcend discursive logic and simply be and openly discern, you can and will see the Ultimate Truth. Some call this approach Silent Illumination, a designation I find both beautiful and strangely calming.
Transcending logic and discursive thinking has a lot to do with dropping the notion of self altogether, not an easy thing to do since one of the ego’s very favorite (and self-affirming) activities is just that: thinking.
Try giving it up sometime — it’s very enlightening to sense how hard it is clinging to life.
Or frustrating — the Monkey Mind loves nothing more than swinging from thought-tree to thought-tree, gibbering all the way.
Still, keep trying. One day you will find yourself in a lovely, quiet glen. Look around. Astound. Not a clumsy finger in sight.
Amaze.
© Wolfstuff





