CBD Changed My Life

CBD oil improved my life & my anxiety

Lamictal Seroquel Xanax Prozac Propranolol Klonopin Depakote Buspar Zoloft

I have been prescribed all of these at some point between the ages of 16 and 29. I’m sure there are some that I’ve forgotten as well.

My diagnosis went from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Oppositional Defiance Disorder, Anxiety, and Depression to Bipolar Disorder to Postpartum Depression with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder presenting as Intrusive Thoughts to now currently Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Depression.

Out of them, the anxiety always affected me the most. I was constantly at war with it. Constantly trying to make it simmer down. It was absolutely exhausting. I tried individual talk therapy, group therapy, CBT, EMDR, meditating, and exercising/walking. All of these things were helpful, sure. But my anxiety made it hard to think straight, to breathe, to be a mother, a person.

My anxiety began at some point in my childhood, as a shy girl living in two households with two completely different sets of rules and four very different parents. I was shown from a young age that my worth depended on my looks and that nothing was guaranteed. I didn’t like the fact that I wasn’t in charge of any portion of my life, my religious school and church were eerily similar to cults, and I had no idea what was coming next. I was constantly on edge. Change was constant. I grew to hate change and the unexpected.

I’ve been called a control freak and uptight most of my adulthood. I have a need to know what’s next so I can try to control it. My thoughts are always racing and my teeth clenched.

I try to protect myself from everything. From the “what if’s”. I have luckily only experienced a few panic attacks in my adult life.

One panic attack in the bathroom at a new workplace was a wake-up call for me. I was working alone under harsh deadlines and I had been late to pick up my oldest son from school every day. The expectations were unrealistic and my mind was in constant chaos. I just couldn’t do it all. My body was literally yelling “Stop! Too much!”

I was fired from that job, I worked there for three awful weeks. I was so relieved to be dismissed. My anxiety said, “Oh, thank God.” I had never been fired from a position before. Things were just not going well. There was no flow in my life, no balance. My anxiety was the highest it had ever been at that point in my life.

I heard people talking about CBD and its benefits for a while.

However, I mostly heard people talk about how it improved their sleep habits and helped them fall asleep quickly and I had no issues in that area. I compared it to marijuana which I never enjoyed when I had tried it in the past as it made me more paranoid and uncomfortable.

I had a family friend who texted me about CBD one day, thinking it may help me feel better. Her sister had greatly benefited from it in regard to her anxiety. I did some research, found a company that I liked (and supported causes that I wanted to support), and decided to try it although it was pricey.

I checked with my psychiatrist to make sure I could take it while I was on the meds she prescribed me. She said yes, but that she was unsure if it would help me.

I began with colorful CBD gummies, which I felt had no effect on me, although they were delicious. In April of 2021, I began taking 1 dropper a day of a 500 MG CBD oil tincture without THC and it has changed my life, my anxiety, and my outlook on medications for mental health.

Not only has it taken the “edge” off, but I now feel much calmer. I am confident enough to handle whatever comes my way each day. CBD oil gave me the determination to be able to give up my nightly “wind down and relax” drink. I am down from four mental health medications to two. Mentally I am in a much better place than I was prior to beginning CBD.

CBD made it much easier for me to remain calm when upset with my children’s behavior. It made it easier to not “sweat the small stuff.” I can’t remember the last time I felt that I needed to wear makeup to school drop-offs. I’m not worried about what people on social media think of me and I don’t get stressed out to the point of needing alcohol to relax after work.

I am not constantly second-guessing myself or thinking of the worst possible scenario. It’s easier to quiet my mind at night and get out of bed in the morning.

I have never experienced any medication that has helped my anxiety and moods as CBD has.

CBD oil doesn’t get you high. It isn’t considered to be addictive.

Recently, hemp was removed from the Controlled Substances Act and CBD is now legal in all 50 states, although the laws are different in each state regarding the THC levels.

The health benefits of CBD seem to be endless. It worked for me better than I had ever expected. I am not cured, but I am better. Life isn’t perfect now but it’s easier to enjoy.

(I currently use the Sunday Scaries brand.)