Causal Infinitum

Emptiness; a sheer temperamental issue — they told me the other day I asked her, “would you rather not promise when you can’t stay” — she nodded earnestly with a grin on her face

I lay there thinking on the rough grassy beds, of the orchard — improvising in a condescending tone, working my way with myself trying to hone the solutions to my own worries

The day has come, for which I had idly awaited — she stopped ringing on my cell, “she lied, she broke the promise she made” — but then my self knew it beforehand, as I murmur these words full of sorrow and grief

Therein lies, the conundrum of a life that everyone never knew — one that people dream of avoiding, and in reality, they run from in shifting haste, escaping the suffering that lies ahead

But I knew it then, and I know it now — it had to happen, it was all but a promise, nothing actually new — a promise that broke myself in two, and now I have to patch myself a new, band-aid the scattered pieces

The self told me to wing it slowly, don’t jump too quick, or you will break yourself in two — I gently smiled as I wanted to, experience this grief to understand its flow, a goal perhaps, an outcome to know

Acceptance does work as a wonder, in times of grief and maketh asunder — this too shall pass, as I calmed my self, it’s just a phase like the ones we faced — together that day, those days, the struggles that we persevered

It isn’t anything that you and I can’t handle — the self smiled in joy and awe; they both stood up together united, facing the danger that lies in front — what fate decided and destiny had strung

They started to move their feet, in sync — running and marching as they faced their end, using their strength, their sorrows, and grief — everything they had even the empty indeed

And then the miracle that happened by chance, the ordeal they won — the mortal coil they shattered, the death that was expected was now conquered, breaking away the prison that was the Causal Infinitum

There it lies, the friend that once was abandoned sleeping away — in the darkness that contained the answers, as soon as they arrived it awakened the soul — the tears that flowed from the eyes of thy heroes

The soul illuminated the canvas of creation, the dear children reunited with the companion that was imagined — was now in synchronicity as the three forms of self lay standing there together

And now what would happen, is something really pure as the light accompanied the brothers — the companions towards the truth, and then slowly it embraced everything — it felt like love, the love that they lost, and the union made it true