SPIRITUALITY
Can You Catch My Dreams, Please?
Poetry and a story about sleeping for mental health, the Maya Calendar, and night wisdom
Dreams are the wonders of the night. Magical and full of symbolism. In our western culture, we often see sleep as a waste of time. Well, think again! Sleep might be the most important tool for mental health as well as physical health and vital for the quality of our waking hours.
When my world as I knew it collapsed in 2013, I could not sleep for more than a year. Many friends said: take a pill. I didn’t. I really had the feeling that my body knew best. If it wanted to heal me by not sleeping, it must be a wise decision. So I meditated instead.
Lying down on my back, I did the body scan over and over and I just counted my breaths. In the daytime I still had my job, so I had a hard time performing my best.
It did wonders for getting rid of my perfectionism, haha.
Now my life is different. I became a freelancer in 2014 and I have deleted the words ‘must’ and ‘have to’ from my dictionary. My sleep returned and since then I treasure it! When my days are hectic, my sleep will help me process emotions and thoughts of the daytime.
And in the night, inspirational voices whisper in my ears.
Early in the mornings, I write. The rest of the day I show up in actual regeneration and economic projects. And if I need it on a certain day, I’ll have some extra powernap around three or four in the afternoon. Cutting my day in two. Being extra alert and mindful in the second half as well.
Slowing down for productivity, this is how it works for me.
Catching My Dreams
The finest bit of slowing down happens in my sleep.
Tossing and turning, cooling and burning, while the seas are vigorously churning.
And all this time the moon looks down and pulls the strings of tide.
What an ingenious planet.
What a beautiful, wise home.
And my dreams? They are whispering in my ears.
In the morning the download happens.
Steady streams, progressing with passionate paragraphs.
Words.
And images.
Fluidly flowing from my fingertips.
I’m born on Blue Resonant Night.
Welcome to my words.
The Maya Calendar
A few years ago, a very special sister/friend of mine told me about my birth date on the Maya Calendar. Of course, I had heard of this calendar. But I didn’t really know about it.
The only thing I knew a little about was the year 2012.
Filmmaker Wiek Lenssen stayed for a long time with the Maya and made a film and a book about it. It helped that I know the filmmaker personally or I would probably never have been introduced to this subject from the indigenous people’s point of view.
And even after watching his film (2001) and reading his book (2003), I still had no clue. To me, 21 December 2012, the year zero, was a concept. A story. A tale about hell and doom. The world might end. Definitely, something special would happen, but who knew what?
The Maya Calendar was kind of fiction to me.
Blue Resonant Night
Until my sister/friend told me about my birth date on the Maya Calendar.
I’m KIN163.
I’m born on Blue Resonant Night.
And I read the words that belong with this knowledge:
I channel in order to dream Inspiring intuition I seal the input of abundance With the resonant tone of attunement I am guided by the power of vision
— KIN163 Tzolkin
Hmm…
Between the year zero and now, a lot changed in my life. Looking back in hindsight, 2012 has been a year of transformation for me. As if a seed was planted. And the seed helped me grow into who I am now.
And now I do recognize the words of KIN163.
My loving father died in 2012 and Blue Economy came on my path that year. It taught me the first wisdom of how we can create abundance in very practical, logical economies. If only we are brave enough to change our economies and our designs of life.
Last year, I found my voice to share the knowledge and inspiration behind the theory. So now I do very practical work to combine the economy with ecology and help create nature-based solutions for a sustainable future.
The inspiring intuition is another subject of my writing. When we combine our heads with our hearts, we will find something behind the crazy day-to-day thoughts and emotions. It’s called intuition. And wow, what a find!
It’s magic! Pure gold for an imaginative girl like me.
My nights are deep now and I remember my dreams more often than before. In the morning I wake up with a thought in my mind. And that becomes a story. Or an action to connect something to someone and create change in the real world.
The power of vision for me is the skill of zooming out. From a bird’s eye view, everything is so much clearer. We can see sharp, we see the systemic connections between problems and we can clearly see the acupuncture points that will be most effective for change.
Nothing Special
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not someone special. I’m a very normal, practical woman who tells you this story to make you realize you have the same power as me. We all have this possibility of seeing more clearly and taking actions on behalf of our beautiful, wise planet and humanity.
I’m definitely no medium. I’m not having visions. Or at least not that I’m aware of. I’m just an ordinary girl with a big imagination. And I combine this powerful imagining with my very practical self to create something worthwhile in this world.
What I do, you can do. I’m convinced that creativity is always fed by intuition. It’s just what it is. And it feeds my writing. My fabulous awakening words on the page that I enjoy so much now.
I laugh and I cry and I just live my life as completely as possible.
Connecting and sharing and inspiring change.
Thank you for reading my words on sleep and dreams. I very much welcome your personal experiences with the year 2012 in the comments.
If you want to connect, you can find me somewhere in the world feeding my imagination… Thank you, Mike, for adding your wise energy to my words.
Further Reading
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© Désirée Driesenaar
