Breaking Out: Toxic Cycles and Narcissistic Abuse

A meditation for today 2

The state of confusion you’re experiencing right now, the turmoil it’s causing inside of you, and the mental energy being drained as you try to discern truth from falsehood — that is the core issue prompting you to distance yourself from this singular trigger. Engaging only leads to further fragmentation, though not complete shattering, it still halts your progress.

Your goal is to attain a state of peace where triggers hold no power over you. You seek integration and stability, no longer torn between your physical and emotional self, as caring about something that brings you harm has proven detrimental to your soul.

Years of evidence should serve as a guide to staying on the right path. While the allure of potential change may be enticing, it hasn’t materialized in the relationship this far, and it’s not enough to lure you back. Despite the strong and compelling force, you recognize it as future faking designed to maintain control.

Any change that happened now Doesn’t matter anyways. That’s about them. Your process of leaving and disconnecting is about you. The boundaries you needed to set long ago are part of why it has gotten to this point. You need to grow and stop serving as prey for the parasite of someone else’s inability to deal with their own issues.

You draw strength from your moments of solitude, self-examination, prayer and Bible Study coupled with supportive conversations with your tribe, and the reassurance from those familiar with your situation. You’re resolute in your decision to move forward and minimize contact with this individual.

You have your direction, keep walking.