Born To Die
Poetry — Baby’s stream of consciousness

Today, I am to be born.
My lonely life, and the days of darkness, are coming to an end very soon. ***
My home that had enough space to twist and turn, All of a sudden, squeezes me up, and seems to be shrunken.
The fluid pool that I enjoyed swimming in, Without any warning, gushes past my face as rapid stream, causing fear and suffocation.
The sound that I adored since four-month-old is no more that soft hymn, Rather a hollow ghastly scream of one, in writhing pain.
I have come to realization, Reaching out to stop that agony is my mission.
Guided through so very narrow path by rapid strong contraction, I push my head through, with all might and determination.
I can feel someone’s touch, My struggle is not in vain. I am pulled through the final exit, gently with caution.
I cry in joy, ready to fall in the hands of this beautiful woman. To feel safe in her arms, To drench in her affection.
She carried me in her womb, ignoring all discomfort and desires, since my conception.
Her sound had been my hope for survival, and my only motivation.
My ears listen to her with earnest concentration.
That painful cry turns into a deep sigh, Heart filled with hope, She asks, “Baby Boy?”
Hoping — that would end her misery, And to her man, she could return.
Hoping — none of her three girls had to live as an orphan.
Baby Boy can save her relationship with the man she love.
Future of her and her children depends on my gender identification.
The matron holding me, Announces with hesitation— My new world begins to spin, For I am called, “a baby girl”, In other term, “a bad omen”.
The woman I adore, screams in pain and anger.
She refuses to take me in her arms.
To my own, I have become a burden. I am “a baby girl”, a reason for any to abandon.
I am denied by the mother who gave me birth. But Not the*Mother Earth*.
I lie again in the dark and alone.
I wish, I was dead in her dark womb in asphyxiation.
If I had known, I am a “baby girl” to be born” an Indian”, To be buried alive, and to be gone…
News Tidbits:
- India witnesses one of the highest female infanticide incidents in the world: study
- It has been revealed that preference of son over daughter is a major reason for female infanticide in many countries around the world.
- Dowry system in South Asia, which makes daughters, “an un-affordable economic burden”, contributes to female infanticide.
- At least 117 million girls around the world demographically go “missing” due to sex-selective abortions.






