A FREE-VERSE POEM

Blindness

I have eyes for everybody else, Everybody but myself.

I am searching for the answers to my question everywhere, Everywhere but in the question itself.

I admire their efforts despite the result, But refuse to accept my failure.

I want their approval for my decisions, But I don’t approve of myself. When all I want is to be like someone else.

I am searching for success everywhere, Everywhere but in my happiness.

I want others to love me, anyone, Anyone but me.

I blame them for their silence, When I, myself, am making so much noise to actually listen.

I blame them for the murder of my dreams, When I myself suffocate my passion to death for normalcy.

I want them to appreciate my advice, When I myself search for a second opinion.

I want them to listen to me, How? When I refuse to open my mouth.

I want them to understand me, When I make no efforts to explain even to myself.

I want to see their real face, When I am hiding my reality behind my stoic mask.

I blame them to leave me alone, When I, myself, am not standing by my side.

I criticize their frauds, When I am a scammer of my dreams.

I want someone to talk to me. But I am not ready to listen, When all I want is — to answer.

I want them to be a better person, When I refuse to see my faults.

I am seeking for someone to guide me, Anyone but my heart and my intuitions.

I seek for company, But I am uncomfortable with myself.

I want them to call me beautiful, When I myself don’t think of me as beautiful.

I saw them as a fighter. How? When I am ashamed of my own scars.

I am trying to fit-in in this world, When the entire universe is inside me.

I open my eyes to look at them, When I refuse to make eye contact with myself.

I believe in “Sharing is caring”, But I don’t care for myself, why? Because I am afraid to share myself.

I admire the pearls, But I am afraid to dive into the depth of the ocean.

I am searching for God everywhere, Everywhere but inside me.

Author’s Note:

Here, “I” indicates you, me, all of us, and nobody at the same time.

Maybe this is the right time to understand we need to seek ourselves before seeking someone else?

Maybe this is the right time to not let yourself choke to death before blaming others?

Maybe this is the right time we realize what we actually need before fretting about what others want?

Maybe this is the right time we accept our faults before we blame someone else?

Maybe this the right time we understand our own lessons before lecturing others?

The world would be a better place to live if we change ourselves before demanding any change, right?

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