Battling the fear of just doing it
Growing up, I have always seen myself as one that was going to try different things and be good at them. I imagined myself being an entrepreneur, owning different businesses, and having different skills to back them up. I wanted financial freedom for myself and never imagined myself as an adult that depended on someone else for money.
After high school, there came a point in my life where I was immensely broke. I wasn’t broke to the extent where I couldn’t pay my bills or my college tuition fees cause that was already sorted. I was broke because I barely had any money in my account and couldn’t afford to get certain things for myself. I hated this so much because I love to be able to get myself things that I liked, for example, more clothes, wigs, make-up and so on. I was 17 at the time. To change my situation, I started applying to different jobs. I applied to any and every job that I could find but I wasn’t getting any callbacks.
At this point, I thought to myself “people earn money from the internet right? Maybe I should research how people are able to do that”. I did my research and all I was seeing was how different people had become millionaires from starting an Amazon FBA business. Of course, that wasn’t for me because I couldn’t afford to sell anything, neither did I have the time for that.
Fast forward to a few years after my first year in university. At this point, I had gone through a couple of part-time jobs and saved some money in the process. I am almost done with school and I strongly believe that I should have a side hustle. Because I have always wanted to build something for myself, I have always seen a full-time corporate job as a means to an end. I don’t ever want to live a life where I live and breathe for my employer. I want to have a purpose. Something that makes me so happy that I am willing to have sleepless nights about.
The problem now is, I am too afraid to start. I have made my research and have created a hierarchy of things that I would love to do, but I am so afraid to start. Someone once said, “if you are so afraid to start something, that means that you want it to work”. I know I want this to work but could that be why I am feeling like I do not have the skills set that are required to start whatever it is that I want to do?