Bars in your eyes. A lockdown love story.
Marco and Darcy-Jean were two unlikely candidates to be marked down for happiness and contentment and were trying to find their way online as searching singles and mainly unlucky in love. People who had been on there on own for years due to the unfortunate events in their lives.
Everything that they tried to engage with or make arrangements for dates seemed to bring them to a roundabout of dead-end turnings which left them both feeling empty inside.
Their self-esteem was just an afterthought and accepted the fact that you are just not meant to be in a loving and meaningful relationship.
Marco had battled with the demons of addiction for many years and also the stigma of mental health issues and paranoia disorder.
To top it off he had spent a good while in prison in his late twenties and so far never seemed to be able to ignite the person he knew he was, deep and sincere with unconditional love and searching for someone to make memories with and be happy and content.
His life had been tarnished with cocaine and gambling in an ever-revolving circle of lies and deceit and experiences that had eluded himself of any normality.
Darcy-Jean was a beautiful and bright young lady who had been living a strict and sheltered life up until she had been able to leave school with good grades and gain a job in the mental health sector working with young adults.
By this time she had also gained her driving licence and was a young twenty-year-old strong-minded independent woman.
Unfortunately, she was drawn to the stereotypical bad boy type. This was essential because with a sheltered and strict upbringing she was not allowed to experience her teenage years.
Naively and without any streetwise experience, she was led up the proverbial garden path and had to endure a violent and cruel existence from poor excuses of men. Only she can explain to help understand what these issues can do and the embedded memories she has arranged and endured in her mind.
On a damp and miserable Friday evening, Marco had come across an endearing and sincere profile on the online dating site he was using in the search for “his happy ever after”. The young lady’s name was Darcey-Jean, she was a thirty-something hardworking mother who by reasons only they now know made Marco’s heart skip a beat. So with a little nervous energy and apprehension decided to inbox her hoping she would want to connect to. She replied to Marco’s offer of connection and their journey of the singletons who were going to adapt and overcome in the face of adversity had begun.
Eighty-Four Hours.
168 hours =amount of time in 7 days divided by 2 =84 hours. The amount of time Marco and Darcey-Jean spent talking about anything and everything in the first week of connecting. Approximately 12 hours a day.
Hey sweet X.
Hey, x.
These are the first time messages. That was properly exchanged off the dating site. This conversation below is what was organically formed.
“I think it’s really important to be able to talk about anything and not even think that you’re not going to back me up and vice-versa. I believe if you treat me well I will treat you better xxx I think it’s important to build trust and loyalty and create a team mentality xxx It’s not all about you. Or me . It’s about the unit. If you mug me off it’s only going to happen once and I don’t want to be friends with you. I want to be a awesome partner who gives you a little tingle in your stomach and other areas. I want you to want me . Please don’t ever think oh I best stay with him because it’s the moral choice. If you’re not happy or interested please tell me babe because I would tell you. I’m not perfect and I have more baggage than EasyJet, but I’m still prepared to put the yards in xxxx.”
“I have baggage too you know. What makes you think I’d ever be like the above? I’m the one that gets judged and made to feel unwanted because I have kids by other men I’m not going to judge you when look at me! I just want loyalty and honesty myself and the same as you if you make a fool of me I will be gone too so maybe we both don’t put up with rubbish because we know what we want but one mistake I’ve learnt that I won’t do again is rush into something and if it’s hot at the beginning like constant texts ect then it’s a warning sign when stupid me used to think it was good. Pace goes further xxxx.”
“You have this cute nervous laugh I love it. Xxxx.”
“I wonder if you could write me a love poem one day that would be amazing xxxxx.”
“I think 💭 I could do that I will have a think about it xxx
I want time to stop when I see you from the moment I get out of the car time won’t exist anymore xxxxx.”
“That’s a beautiful thought xxx ❤️❤️😘😘.”
“We will never stop finding anything to do. Xxxx i do want to go back to Wales and take the kids to Llandudno, Conwy and Betws y coed. I like Wales still xxxx.”
“Absolutely. That’s good though. Good sign to. Making little plans. Nothing worse when you’re trying to find things to do xxxx.”
“I’m having a Chinese for tea. What’s your favourite?”
“Mine is chow mein I love noodles xxxxx.
I’ve not had a Chinese for years things like that are a treat for me xxxxx.”
“Yeah but if you work hard 😓 and then do the right things xxx You deserve everything and more babe xxxxx 😘.”
“Hopefully I can have treats with you. The other night and tonight I just want to hug you and fall asleep in your arms. With everything that’s going on in this world right now nobody should be alone xxxxx.”
“I spoke with Xavi about you briefly. He mentioned “FATE”.XX”
“When this is over.Life will be different. All those messed up people that hurt people can go because I will cherish my kids and what I’ve got and hopefully build something with you and go for it and never look back. What made your friend say fate? Xxxx.”
“Because I mentioned about what I had already written. I share my links with him. Then I mentioned the quote from the picture. That’s it. He looked at me and just said he wants me to be happy and that FATE. Can play it’s part when you least expect it xxxxx.”
“Ye it can he’s right. Don’t mess it up lol I briefly told my mum about you so we have both said something today xxxxx.”
“The only promise I would ever ask from you with no fingers or toes crossed is that you never hurt me (not in a violent way) just in general xxxx.”
“I have no intentions of ever doing this. I PROMISE YOU THAT 😘.”
“It’s extremely important to me that you’re comfortable with everything. You’re all my dreams and more xxxxx.”
“Well it’s difficult when you have a huge connection with a person and I don’t care if it’s too soon to say but I don’t just want to have sex with you people just have sex with no meaning all the time I want to make love to you. I’m not afraid to say anything I have to say it as it is. Xxxxx.”
“The sound of your voice melts me. Of course I feel good xxxxx ❤️.”
“ That’s good 😊 xxx I hope you feel good 😊 to babe ❤️❤️.”
“Good 😊 I want you to want me because It’s going to be amazing 😉 xxxx.”
“I want you more than anything xxx.”
“I want you to babe. We can make memories and build a little bit of happiness together xxx.”
“Am sat in bed eating fruitella’s lol 😂 xxxx.”
“If you weren’t so amazing I wouldn’t be like this now. I keep things inside I don’t talk. Wish I was in bed with you eating them but the strawberry ones are mine lol xxxxx.”
“I was watching Sky-news, this lockdown is not going to end any time soon. I think we need to sort out a date. I’d like you to come on a Friday and stay until a Monday on lockdown. Don’t worry about cigarettes I will get you those when your here. So I think we should set a date xxxxxx.”
“Hey babe xxxx I’m looking for trains now. What do think about after I get paid xxx?? Because I don’t. have any money for the train. I’m 200% up for it absolutely xxx.”
“Night. I want what you want. Xxxxx 😘😘😘😍❤️.”
“What we have now is still precious and we can build up a genuine and lasting relationship . I hope you have sweet dreams and horny thoughts xxx sending you XL hugs xxx and XL snuggles with XL kisses 😘 from me. Night babe 😴😴❤️xx.”
“Good 😊 I want you to want me because It’s going to be amazing 😉 xxxx.”
“This is a stupid question but in an ideal world what would you want right now? And in your blogs you mention about your life and your struggles but one day do you think that you would write a blog about finding happiness so that the people who are reading your blogs and connecting with them can have hope that it does happen? Xxxx.”
“I will be writing about this once we’re settled. I don’t want anything to be done Until we are settled. Xxx.”
“I want you to be my happy ever after xxxx ❤️❤️❤️❤️.”
“ We will never look back since you sent me that first message xxxxx.”
“No way. Marching forward is the only way xxxx.”
“Definitely just got to meet now xxxx.
We can take on anything together xxxxxx.
We can take on the fucking world. Xxxx.”
“We will put that on our to do list. Be so much easier when the kids are in school because on my days off work I will have most the day free xxxxx.”
“Yeah I know babe. I have thought about it. A lot. Everything will slot into place xxx.”
“I’ve never ever met a man so sweet that cares or notices these things. Let’s hope one day of you haven’t pulled your hair out by then that it will be a year together! Xxxxx.”
“All we’ve got at the moment are our thoughts and photos and our connection to keep us going xxxxxx ❤️.”
Dangerous Liaisons.
After a little time to process and reflect. Marco accepted Darcey-Jean’s offer of meeting up and going to her remote countryside retreat.
Darcey-Jean was going to accommodate Marco and make him feel comfortable and welcome the only issue was Marco travelling up on the train to the nearest location and station where it would be safe to meet up and for Darcey-Jean to collect Marco from in her car.
On a roasting hot Tuesday morning in April at 8 am Marco boarded the train from the welsh coast and his destination was the beautiful Cheshire countryside.
He made it to the destination of Darcey-Jean’s choice. A little nervous and excited he jumped off the train and into her car. They momentarily embraced before speeding off into the meandering lanes of the Cheshire countryside en route to the remote destination and countryside retreat.
The rest of this love story against the backdrop of lockdown and adversity has limitless potential and you can use your imagination to make your ending.
All I can say is Marco & Darcey-Jean wanted to find their happy ever after. There’s no reason why this can’t be the end of there quest.
A perfect love story.
Created in a space filled with positive vibes and love.
By B.A. Cumberlidge.