April Showers III: The Mother Load
Poems by Ed Fields In recognition of National Poetry Month

My mother’s nickname is Mimi. It was one of those natural nicknames that eased into our lives with the birth of my nephew nearly fifteen years ago.
My mother and sister were the very first women I ever loved and I am fortunate to still have them both in my life. We have experienced triumphs and struggles. The concoction of dumb luck and decisions has textured our lives in ways that are familiar to us and only us.
I see them and they see me.
I shared my first post of personal poems in recognition of National Poetry Month in April 2020. This is now an annual tradition.
April Showers III blends some very new and some very old sentiments, including the timeless sweetness of Tupac’s Dear Mama. Tupac captured the brilliant resilience, commitment, and undying love of his mother, Afeni Shakur. He made us all feel connected to the mothers and mother figures that nurtured us through it all.
So, for my mother and yours, I hope you find a moment of revelry in these words as we transition from National Poetry Month to Mother’s Day.
Enjoy!
mimi a haiku for my mother. written October 2021.
mi mi mi mi mi a clear throat and a nickname mimi, all the same
The Mother Load a poem for my mother. January 2022.
do it for mama means something different now
a new mandate a new moment
a new now
framed memories on her walls
are antidotes for doubt
she was there for us we have proof.
when she is lost we find her
lugging memories like sand in a metal sieve
scattered across a beach awaiting the tide.
her mind more in sync with the season than the moment
ebb and flow ebb and flow
frothy forages through the mind uncovering relics long buried
for good or for bad.
some relics belong at the bottom of her ocean
others deserve to be rescued and reclaimed revived and magnetized
placed on the refrigerator door where reminders are never more present and invisible all at once.
she brought us into this world
carried us to term it is our turn
we remember we hold hands we breath we pray we push
we deliver her back to the moment and toward some undetermined future
she ain’t heavy she is our mama.
do it for mama
means something different now.
Sister a poem for my sister. written 1998.
you were the one that was there from the start
you were the one I pushed on swings at the park
you were the one that I had to fight
you were the one I hugged goodnight
you were the one that made me strive harder
you were the one that i call a self-starter
you were the one for years I would reside
you were the one that had eyes that mirrored mine
you were the one upon whom I did boast
you were the one with whom I love to be close
you are the one I truly love most.
Dear Mama by Tupac Shakur. released February 1995.







