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Androgynous Today Feels Great
Why does androgynous seem so important
Non-binary is what I am. I am female inside and male outside. I love both but would rather be female outside and male inside.
I’m Androgynous Today
Looking at myself in the mirror I am constantly reminded of the beauty I really possess.
Make-up can do miracles these days. I have the option of being the best of both worlds.
Why did I not understand that sooner? Reading and following writers on Medium that I trust and admire gave me the guts and determination to accept myself for what I have always known to be.
If you click on the bold statement above, you can read what I am and have a better understanding of the confusion I have had to live with for more than 60 years.
Why does androgynous seem so important to me today?
I accept that being a female inside is what I have always been.
I am not totally male outside. I have always had small breasts and love them. I have little or no body hair.
For years I have always loved to dress as a female and feel much more comfortable in heels than men's shoes. I always felt that I needed pointy shoes and I have the toes to prove it.
I always took a smaller size in shoes. Did it feel right? Not better, but just right for my ego and female personality. I just cannot explain the feelings I have had all these years. I was not very talkative about my condition. Who could I talk to? I have been feeling this way since I was eight years old. I am 67.
I always knew or thought I was not gay yet I loved being a woman inside this body. I loved men and prefer having sex with a man because they(I) know what they want. Being with a man sexually is much more comfortable than with a woman.
I married my best girlfriend over 48 years ago and we have little sex together. She was abused as a child and sexually we are just not compatible. We have never been sexually compatible. We are best friends, and we made lots of choices together.
During the first years of going out together, we did not have sex or even discussed it. Little did we both know that this decision is what kept us together and still does today.
We are the best of friends. That is the miracle that I know could save many, from the pain of going through what many of us have.
As most teens, being girls, we both wanted children and a family. It took me years to explain to her who I was and to this day she has supported me. It also took her years to explain what problems she had sexually.
She knew I wasn’t gay and I knew she was not lesbian. I will not go any farther with that today but I am open to discuss with any of you what we are all about, as a couple and as individuals, husband and wife, and best friends.
She helps me dress and do my makeup. She finds me attractive as a female but does not want to have sex with me any more than with my man's side.
If you are reading this article and you are a man that knows about his women side, you need to ask yourself only two questions:
- If you are in a relationship that is uncomfortable, how was it when you started. Were you two best friends? What has happened to that friendship?
- If you knew more about what my wife and I went through, do you think it would make a difference in your lives?
It has not been easy. We have had three children, eight grandchildren and hardly any sex.
Sound familiar?
I will cover many other subjects about my life and our sexual or non-sexual life in other articles in the future.
Please join me and respond with questions.
Louise🧡🧡🧡