An Open Letter to My Loving Son

I love you to the moon and back

“I am a family man, and my most important role is a father to my son.”- Ed Skrein

Dear son,

You are about to turn two this week.

I can’t express my gratitude to you. You not only have given a new definition to my life but also have filled the void which was longing to be filled.

The day when your mother and I came to know the very good news of her being pregnant with you.

Trust me, buddy. I too had that indescribable feeling of you being present in my body.

If I had some supernatural powers I would have made me hold you in my arms the very first day I found out, because seriously, I didn’t know how to hold my excitement for those nine months.

Thus, patiently we waited for you to come to us, and oh boy! We had completed that time too.

That time when I held you in my arms for the first time, that moment can’t be expressed in mere words. I believe that day I came to know what it feels like when people say they are on cloud nine.

When our friends and relatives saw you they said you are a copy of mine. Maybe that is a reason why I gave a part of my name to you as your name.

Witnessing you grow day by day makes me happier than ever. While writing this, I can still visualize one of those toothless smiles in front of my eyes. You are, and will always be, the cutest son in the whole world for me.

Your first crawl, when you said “pappa” for the first time, your first tooth, your first steps, your first crying for me when I was leaving you for the office…. all these moments have imprinted on my heart.

I will cherish these memories for my entire life. I haven’t forgotten those tough sleepless winter nights when you were unable to sleep because of your cough and fever. I was always there for you, standing strong, knowing and hoping that the next sunrises will cure you slowly.

Seeing my happiness on your first birthday, your mother exclaimed “it seems that it's your birthday.” This is not completely false; it was my first year being a daddy.

Also, I am sorry for all those scoldings which made you cry in guilt. I wish one day you will understand that all I ever want is your well-being. At times when you were irritating, I couldn’t stop myself from being angry. But your innocent face melts all that anger away.

I used to count myself as one of those masculine and tough guys, who find it hard to cry over something. But when, in lockdown, we were away from each other for two months, I was teary-eyed most of the time when I would think about you. I used to miss you so much.

All I used to do is to watch your photographs and videos, which I had on my phone. And most of the time I was so sad. I used to miss you badly.

I can’t express how much you mean to me. You are my world. Maybe, I am not one of those who can express emotions very well. But I hope you know that you mean the entire universe to me. My love for you will never fade away.

I will always love you as I do today.

There is one thing I want to tell you is that you tend to stare at girls when we are on walks. You become curious to talk to them, although you still are learning how to speak. So next time when you do so, make sure I am not watching you.

I must admit you are a big fan of cartoons and animated movies. When I turn the tv on, you come and sit next to me, demanding to play your cartoons and not news channels.

When I turn the laptop on, you come and hold my hands to guide me to the YouTube icon to play cartoon videos. When I use my mobile, you cry, and then I pause my work and play cartoon videos. The same is with the tablet and your mother’s phone. You can watch cartoons from all devices, simultaneously.

I think those smiles you give when you are sleeping are because maybe you are dreaming yourself with your favorite cartoons in Disneyland.

“It’s not flesh and blood but the heart that makes us father and son.”- Friedrich von Schiller

On February 20th, when you are having your second birthday, all I want to say is, I love you unconditionally.

There is nothing in this universe that can be compared to my love for you. I adore you, and I will always be there for you. You represent the happiness, the legacy of your mother and we both love you very much.

I hope that the bond that we share today stays the same till the last breath of mine.

Love, Pappa

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