Am I The Only One Feeling Super Down Lately?

Waking up is getting tougher

Today, I woke up. It took me 30 minutes to leave my bed. It was too warm and cozy, the opposite of how it feels at night. I jumped in the shower, got dressed, and left for work. I boarded the crowded train, and I saw the same miserable faces I always see. I got to my job and did what I always do. Then I came home tired.

Wait, that’s been my routine for the past six months, since I last had a week off when I visited Center Parcs.

• Wake up
• Struggle to get out of bed
• Shower
• Get Dressed
• Get on the train
• Work
• Train again
• Make food
• Few hours of free time
• Struggle to sleep

It’s a cycle that slowly leads to self-destruction. At least, that’s how I feel. Then I remembered that people have been doing this for 50 years of their life. I’ve only been in my current job for around one year and six months. Already I feel the repetition. The hours stay the same but the days get longer. I become more familiar with the job, yet it feels harder.

And so I ask myself. Is it me? Am I just lazy?

Or is the system poorly designed, but everyone seems content enough to continue the cycle?

But is it contentness, or is it necessity? If you have a family, whom you are the sole provider for, you simply must work. You must get up early, get on the train, and work. For them. There are no ifs or buts. So, then I ponder others my age. I know people who were in the same university classes as me, who now work a 9–5 job in a place that doesn’t relate to our degree.

I can’t understand how that path, from education to a full-time job is so well traveled.

Some will read this post and deem me an unexperienced whippersnapper, and probably tell me to get off their lawn. I always respect people who are older than me, it’s something I was brought up to do.

But as I’ve grown older myself I realize that, just because someone is old, it doesn’t mean they are wise. I don’t mean that in an offensive way, but often I get told some terrible advice from people who mean well, but just don’t know any better.

I remember telling people when I graduated university and they were delighted for me. I also remember telling them when I earned over $2,000 online, and they barely batted an eyelid.

I thought this was insane. While I understand most people earn around that a month, so it wasn’t an incredible amount of money, most of the people in my life don’t know how to switch the ringer on their phone on. So, the fact that I had made such a good sum of money online should’ve been celebrated just as much, if not more, than my university graduation.

But, society has it all wrong, in my opinion. I took the day off work when I graduated, it was a Friday, and as I sat there waiting for my turn to walk on some carpet and shake someone's hand I’d never met, it dawned on me that I’d be back to work on Monday, and nothing will have changed.

People are angry over the wrong reasons. People get upset when their favorite celebrity flies too much, or when a war breaks out on the other side of the globe. People should be angry that they don’t get more time with their kids.

That’s just my two cents. It’s getting harder to wake up each day and motivate myself to repeat endless, and meaningless, repetition. I have to do this because the majority of people have their priorities backward.

And so the true information about becoming financially free, and I’m talking the helpful information, not ‘I made 1 million in 2 months with 4 simple steps’ is difficult to find.

Because it’s not spoken about. Instead, we talk about Taylor Swift and how much she flies around in her private jet. Or how we can’t wait for the weekend. You are shamed for wanting to be different, for wanting a life.

“That’s just life, you have to work, you are just lazy”.

Me? I’m lazy? I’m doing something you didn’t even try.

And I’m not giving up, who’s with me?

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