Acts of Love
An Internal Struggle to Accept What We Need
The many ways to show that you are special to me
I can only hope that you fully take it all in
The effort that I put into that smile on your face
to fill your stomach, to help make your days go a little easier
to shield you from the cold, to ensure that you’re safe in bed at night
is definitely worth the reward
I’m aware of how difficult life can be
You’ve been exhausting yourself
Taking care of others that didn’t consider the fact that you needed similar treatment, if not more
as your wounds have not been tended to at all
Holding your words because you feel that your voice is not appreciated
as it has been made out to be that your thoughts are unnecessary
and that you’re dramatic in expressing your concerns
Though when I mention the idea of “love”, you pull away in fear
Fear that history will repeat itself and you’ll lose the progress that you’ve made on your journey of healing thus far
I understand. I give you the space that you require, and provide words of affirmation when needed
I have a list of your favorite things, so that I can surprise you with gifts
I attempt to feed you every chance that I get
“Do you need anything from me?” — as I extend my services in any way that I can
You accept these things with ease, and show that you appreciate them
Though these are acts of love, one would expect that you’d reject me
But you haven’t..
Although you are afraid of stepping back into this realm, you cannot deny that you need that thing called “Love” that you are so afraid of
I am patient. I will give you as much space as you’d like, and still be at your side, at your call
To show you that, despite your position, and your past
You are deserving of the love that you desired all those years ago
You may be damaged, but you are more than worthy
and always have been