Acknowledging My Weaknesses
I Suck at Stuff, and That’s Okay
Since I was a kid, I have always focused on my weaknesses instead of my strengths. I don’t know how I grew up to be a pessimist, but I have been hard on myself since I can remember. Whatever big or little mistake I make, I’d be thinking about it over and over again on how I could’ve done it better. This has heavily influenced my confidence and the way I saw myself growing up; I would see myself in a certain way and it was confusing for me when people would say other wise.
When I read Ruth Marcella’s “Our weakness is our greatest advantage,” I was inspired to write this blog. Weaknesses shouldn’t be hidden. It shouldn’t be something to be ashamed of. It should be embraced in order to achieve inner development. And so here I am, trying to embrace my weaknesses against my force of habit.
- Yes, I know I suck at cooking. I can’t cook anything nice to save my life. But I want to look at how this happened. See, before I moved to Canada I grew up in a middle class household. I had basic chores as a child, but I was never in charge of cooking. I couldn’t learn it myself since I was never alone; Food was made for my siblings and I. Upon migrating to Canada, we didn’t have the same kind of luxury, and I had to learn how to cook basic things myself. Even then, my mom was the one to always cook. Now that I have moved out, I can only make very basic things, but I can’t cook as well as the normal person. Whoops, there I go again comparing myself to others. I have to remember that every person has their own unique journey.
- Yes, I know I suck at driving. As a child, I was driven around due to the level of danger in my home country when it comes to children. In addition, when I moved to Toronto, well, it’s sometimes more of a hassle to own a car due to the traffic. It was pretty common for a lot of people to just commute everywhere. Now, I don’t have a car yet, but I have my driver’s license. Boy, the anxiety on the driving test was intense on that one! To think on the positive side, I have my license and once I regularly drive, the more experience I’ll have and the more I’ll improve. Looking at the bright side, I guess I saved money on car insurance all these years!
- Yes, I know I suck at staying in focus. I get distracted easily and can’t stay consistent in everything I do. I can’t maintain a routine. However, the little distractions I get is what helps me be creative; the little distractions are usually small creative ideas popping in my head. One of them was the idea to write this certain blog due to being inspired by another person’s writing.
- But seriously though, I should learn to focus and finish things. At least I know how to get started!
It’s so weird to go against my pessimistic nature and to think positively instead. It’s kind of refreshing. I’m not trying to justify my weaknesses; I’m just trying to accept them so as to prevent the negative thoughts from eating at me. By accepting what my weaknesses are, I’m able to recognize them better and improve upon them.
Every moment that comes is a learning experience. Be it through a mistake or someone teaching us, every moment has something to teach. Moving forward, there is definitely room for development, and I can’t wait for new experiences.
How about you? I urge to embrace your weaknesses too!
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