My UFO Spiritual Awakening

I’m so into U’s

As a kid from the ’80s, the thought of UFOs — now called Unidentified Aerial Phenomena (UAPs) — has always fascinated me. I’m not alone. I believe there are MILLIONS of others just like me. The movie E.T. was basically an alien fantasy, and to this day, it remains one of the most wonderful depictions of potential unity, healing, and hope between humans and non-human intelligence (NHI). Flight of the Navigator was another inspiring and uplifting film for a kid in my generation! Then came shows like “Unsolved Mysteries” and “X-Files,” which added some fear with their abduction stories. Personally, “Star Trek the Next Generation” was a show I watched twice per day for a couple of years. Talking to computers, meeting aliens, and exploring the unknown in a beautiful Starship, seemed like a dream come true. Still does! Any list of influences I can think of would barely scratch the surface of what’s been pumped into the collective over the last 40+ years.

Currently, I’m in my mid-40s and still talk about UFOs/UAPs whenever I get a chance with anyone who seems open to it. I recently met a Canadian astrophysicist on the way up Mount Teide in Tenerife, Spain. I asked him what he thought about Aliens (and if they’ve made it here). He wasn’t sure, but he didn’t trust that our militaristic worldview would translate at all to another species from the stars. That was reassuring.

Usually, I’ll ask with a sense of lighthearted fun to learn what people believe — especially if they have experience flying aircraft or have served in the military, intelligence agencies, etc. My guess is that if you’re reading this still, then you may have some amazing stories yourself or anecdotes from friends, family, and acquaintances about aliens and UFOs / UAPs. I should also add that I have a twin brother. He’s been working within the government and with intelligence agencies his whole adult life. That was his dream. Mine was being an astronaut. I obviously didn’t achieve my dream of working for NASA or being an astronaut (Note: I’m a gay man with asthma, which limited many of my routes to this occupation in the 90’s and early 2000’s). But I’m glad half of my embryo made it! Ha. In high school, we jokingly devised a saying so we could share if we ever “knew without a doubt” that aliens were here! It was the following: “K.N.* says hello.” *where K.N. are the initials of my high school girlfriend. Now, we never had the need to actually use our twin-devised covert code because others have already revealed it to us!

Priming the pump further, in 2010, I read UFOs: Generals, Pilots and Government Officials Go on the Record by Leslie Kean. By the end, I was convinced E.T.’s are here. I eagerly connected with Leslie on Facebook at the time (when I used to have an account), where she answered a few questions directly and hosted live chats about the book, which was absolutely amazing and exciting. I never thought we would get THIS MUCH proof in my lifetime. Still, even this data and reporting wasn’t breaking through as major news nor convincing anyone who had less fascination with the topic. It was back to the status quo for several years but with more pep in my step and with a sort of underlying contentment of ‘knowing’ something more.

Fast forward to December 2017. Everything is about to change drastically.

The Encounter

It’s late December, 2017. I just resigned from a giant tech company after almost 18 years working as a consultant. I’m about to start a new job in January, at another large company, doing similar work. It was between Christmas and New Year’s Eve. I couldn’t have been more relaxed and excited about all the new opportunities ahead.

“Out with the old and in with the new!”

It soon turned out to be a new… Everything.

First, UFOs were back in the news because Leslie’s reporting (along with videos) was officially confirmed by the Pentagon.

At the time, I lived in Evanston IL, in a neighborhood right next to the Hospital (on the Northernmost side of town). I was sitting in my home office and surfing the web with extra excitement. I then stumbled upon a funny little article about how a man claimed he was being chased by a UFO around England! The article mentioned that he attempted a “CE5 protocol” to reach out to aliens, and it worked. Now, even as fascinated as I am with UFOs / UAPs, contacting them (via telepathy or meditation) seemed outlandish to me. However, I was also sort of surprised that I never heard of this “CE5 Protocol” or that this whole method of outreach even existed. I never heard about it growing up nor stumbled upon this through my light research over the years as an adult. In my mind, a voice said, “I guess you’re not really that into this UFO stuff then, are you?” So, by the power of Google, I soon found there was an “ET Contact” app. I immediately downloaded it, sort of as a joke. I think it cost 10 dollars at the time. The app looked cheap, basic, and clunky. I didn’t have any expectations that a collection of tones, meditations, or information about collecting ‘field data’ would be of any use. It did sort of feel like something the younger me would try (as a kid or teenager). In fact, my brother and our friends used to listen to my dad’s anti-smoking and tennis improvement hypnosis tapes to relax as kids. To this day, I am disgusted by cigarettes, and I can play tennis pretty well (I’m better in my head than in real life!)

OK, let’s fast forward again to approximately 2AM, the morning after downloading the app. I was in bed, not able to sleep. So, I decided to try a guided meditation called “Structure of the Universe.”

I felt a bit silly due to my rational side, but I also felt a bit tingly with childlike excitement when I started because of all the fascination, fear, and possibility with this newfound ‘practice.’

I wanted it to work and took it seriously enough too, because my personality up to this point was always being a “good student!” So, when it told me to breathe in and feel all the “Earthy goodness” (paraphrasing) coming into my body, then I really tried to picture it and feel it. Even though I didn’t understand all the ideas and terms in the meditation, the relaxation part worked. I was so comfortable and safe, trying something new and looking forward to the year again. One notable effect on the way to relaxation was an instruction to think about “Who is watching the [my] breath?” Even in my increasingly relaxed state, this gave me a ‘jolt’ of increased ‘separation’ from my body. It made me realize that “I” was outside and more than my body, in a way that I never felt before. It tripled my ability to relax, without “thinking” too much about it in the moment.

Then, there was a sort of “prayer” included about ushering in an era of peace and order and love, across the Universe with all our “brothers and sisters.” Remember, being the chubby teenager who watched Star Trek the Next Generation twice per day (re-runs on UPN in the 90’s), well, this made him cry and weep with happiness. I felt like I found a whole group of unknown people who had ideas about what life could be like, that I didn’t even know existed formally. I was hearing words and ideas that I resonated with so well, and it was an absolutely happy and joyful shock. I was filled with hope. I knew I was weeping too.

I felt a gentle tingle and then a surge of energy. My body “stiffened” gently, like I was a balloon that filled with vibrations. I felt like I was going to vanish. In a way, I suppose I did, because the best way I can describe what came next was just LIGHT. Bright, connected, LOVE and oneness. I felt everyone I ever knew or could even imagine was there with me. Grandma? Hi, oh you’re here. Mom? Hi, I can feel your love and know you’re with me. Did I want to “know” about something, oh, “everything just is” accessible instantly. I wasn’t scared. I didn’t want this to end. It felt like it was the way things are supposed to be. In that moment, nothing else mattered and somehow I was understanding that everything IS LOVE and that you’re always together and blended with everyone and everything and every time and every place. Can you tell that this is difficult for me to put into words? This is because it’s hard putting into words something that was an innate knowing, feeling, and experience flying through an awareness and being illuminated by thought.

The vibrations and light subsided, and I was back in my normal awareness. I felt the wetness on my cheeks and pillow from happy tears and slowly reoriented myself to what just occurred.

The excitement and happiness I felt, soon got interrupted by thoughts like, “Did something just appear over the house? Did I actually contact aliens? Would this be tracked and/or noticed by the government?” I felt like that guy in the article who sounded a bit paranoid in England. Side note of mental state significance: When I got out of bed and went into the front of the house a few minutes after the experience (happy, shaken, amazed, and confused), there was a car running across the street with a man standing next to the car. The real weird part is that it was about 2:40 AM by this point, and our neighbors across the street were in their early 70’s. I know this seems ridiculous, but I somehow got even a bit more freaked out, and I still laugh a bit at how a bit of egomania set in so quickly. I’m sure it wasn’t an Uber: Men in Black, or similar, because I didn’t see a hand beckoning me to get into the car! Ha.

This was my version of a spiritual awakening. I know without a doubt there is MORE than meets the eye. I experienced it, just like millions of others (UFO or not).

And now… Six years later, I’m still searching for and finding some answers.

Hundreds of books later. A CE5 Conference in Scottsdale, AZ. In April, 2022. (Note: Don’t meet your heroes.) Also, you can meditate and/or do CE5 for free. This article is NOT an endorsement of anything but the idea of CE5. You can make it your own. It’s not about all the details, it’s the intent and feeling behind what you do that matters in this space.

Revisiting my childhood through Christian Science studies, philosophy (Carl Jung), and other religious or spiritual beliefs. Delving into breathing techniques and audio experimentation (gateway tapes, binaural, subliminals, self-hypnosis, remote viewing, etc.)

I continue to expand my awareness because I ENJOY this sort of work. There are highs and lows, like anything else. I plan to write more about different experiences, books, techniques, or anything else that comes to mind in the future.

Before I wrap this story up, here are some books that stick out in my mind when I think back over what I’ve learned so far: Stalking the Wild Pendulum, Extraordinary Knowing, Randi’s Prize, Reality Transurfing, The Gift of Healing, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, and even some of Carlos Castenada’s books have each enhanced my understanding of reality. I love listening to and reading Ekhart Tolle.

I read the other day that any awakening is just the beginning. Heck, we can always fall back asleep! Sometimes I am more confused than ever about what to give my attention to. Stories like mine have been shared thousands of times before. So, knowing that I am not contributing anything “new” to the conversation, the only thing I can offer is my perspective in the hopes that it resonates with anyone experiencing similar. The more we remind ourselves of our unity, the better off we become in our day-to-day. Thanks for your time and attention, and I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas.