A Small Package of Positivity

A letter I sent to my husband after a night’s fight

My husband and I have a strange relationship. I like to call it a relationship of ‘discovery’. All couples fight, engage in disagreements and enter into heated arguments. We do too, and I am not shying away from it.

It was one such intense argument that my husband and I once entered into during the night and which lasted almost until dawn. It was not entirely peaceful. For brief moments, both of us took turns in raging up the mood and went from being two mature adults talking it out to two hot headed persons venting their own flaws on the other.

It seemed as if we would never reach a satisfactory conclusion. One after another, we both went on and on, refusing to give up and suggesting how the other ought to change, be patient and live up to the “relationship goals”.

Ah! It was exhausting.

The following morning, we both felt awful. We were both desperate to somehow erase the ugly memories from the previous night and forget the mean things we had said to each other. We badly wanted to feel better and secretly wished to let it all go away and start over. We had all the reasons to —

That morning, I wrote to him….

It is a new day today and a new morning

Last night was gloomy, heavy and unrestful

I know, it hurts

I know, it’s painful

I know sometimes there’s no easier way

Heart breaks and hopes lost

Patience may be weak, priorities may be different

Perspectives may diverge, unspoken may be spoken

We tried and failed

But we are to decide our own end

A new morning awaits

The sun shines bright, imparting hope

And the courage to start it all over again

The morning is filled with life

Birds chirping and humans hustling

Then what is to stop us from feeling again?

It is not you, it is not me

What is the point in blaming anyway?

It is what the situation commands

It is God who judges

How we fare in the exam called Companionship

The morning is still young

Why must we, give up then?

The secret lies in caressing what we have

What we have is eternal ‘Love’

A love strong enough to start again

Start afresh.

We both were very upset and lost. But we both knew we wanted each other — badly, madly, insanely. Simply, we wished to stay besides each other, share a warm hug and say —

With you, I’d start over a thousand times

It was powerful, effective and positive. From this incident, I learnt about the power of ‘letting go’ of what is done and said and starting over, afresh. There is only so much you can do to avoid fights but there is a lot more you can do to make it right.

These set of words was exactly what we both needed. In no time, after I wrote these lines and after he read them, there we were, making it right, breathing a sigh of relief, hope and happiness.

If you are too looking for a reason to connect again, to love again, to start anew and afresh, I hope this small package of positivity affirms your thoughts and decisions. No matter how huge the difference or how drastic the disagreements are, there will always be room for starting over with the right person.

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