A Life of One’s Own Design
self, family or greater whole
Boy struggling to find seating among the greats, adulthood seemingly far out of reach in its existence. Pubescence entryway, turning a blind eye the jackals and hounds invitation accepted down darkened roads, indiscriminately traveling all by his design.
Fair maiden passing by, twinkles and showers shooting stars captivating glow piercing rough and ready pigskin of the hound. As a matter of fact, playing a sharpened tune lioness straight for the jugular, resetting incisors, keeping pulse on lover’s direction all by her design.
Two hearts beat as one, varying sequential songs periodic to the tables of turning opposite ends gamut keeping Gaia turning a globe. Seven years forward, itching, caressing change leaping, side-step galloping poles, never glimpsing desires fulfilling one jump then three all by their design.
Family unit expanding, mouths to feed not yet spoken words, but mighty presence emitting and commanding lessons from the two. Together into the forest, natural heart-felt centrifugal force binding them tightly knit sweaters, learning, growing, expanding into private communities all by their design.
Great pause and reflection, by one then four individually, collectively, wholly projected musical familial re-tuned song. Given strength innately forming sure-footed happenstance not quite true always present, gifted self, greater whole it was all by great design.
~ Ani Po
When I first thought about this title, prompted by 𝘋𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘢 𝘊. and her 30-day Challenge, I thought about what I have contributed to life’s unfolding story. After reflecting upon and pondering as I do, a greater meaning presented.
As individuals we have goals, we meet them or throw them away. We learn and grow or aimlessly go through this life grasping for more.
Then I reflected on when I met my other half. Thinking I was whole prior to, joining hands making a greater whole with greater ambitions birthing new existence. Learning and growing, now from each other, giving and receiving, checks and balances gifting new lessons conquering individual and combining whole.
Years pass, uncertain of next chapters, two are gifted to us and lessons deepen for the unit we call family. Ebb and flow, nature’s and nurtured souls giving and receiving lessons of their own, presenting greater lessons for the whole.
I ponder again. Was this by my design? Or is there a great force acting on our behalf? We could say yes or no to the questions, but with any person’s, situation, there is always a greater presence if we choose to witness.
Free will? Not even going to touch on this. What I will engage is the possibility of individuals coming together as one, from I to we, forming a greater purpose for self, family, community, and beyond. It is, and never was, my intent to give up the self, but define it, grow it and intertwine it with something greater other than myself.
I will leave the rest up to the reader to grasp the jist behind the title.
Much gratitude for those who take time to read, ponder, and allow the inner workings of self to come forward. Grateful for the feedback, love shared, and more importantly, the Dance with Inspiration. Deep Peace.
