A Change is Coming
Watching and waiting
America, my beloved land. I adopted you several decades ago. I came here a naive immigrant armed with one suitcase and a world of dreams.
I have faced hardships, I have worked hard, I did the difficult jobs. I pinched pennies, I have lived in unsavory places, ones I would not be comfortable in at this time in my life.
In you, I have found a place where some dreams can come through. Not all dreams … some.
I have faced racism and colorism and I continue to experience up to this very day. I have been called racist names often by the very people I treat within the arena of healthcare. I have seen other professionals of color disrespected and insulted more times than I can count.
My working family perpetuates hate and racism as well. Hate lives with those formally educated as well as those who are streetsmart.
Hate is very much alive and well in this America today!
I love you America. I always felt this is the place where I will lay my hat at the end of my days, I no longer feel that way.
In the past but especially these last four years I have seen many things, atrocities I had only heard stories about, and hoped never to witness. Because of these witnessed atrocities and lawlessness, I have spent much of that time planning my exodus from this hell.
I have regretted coming here, regret birthing my children here and if I am being honest, I regret having to leave my children to a future of hate, fear, and pain.
Recently we saw a man killed in the streets, by those sworn to protect us, in full view of his peers and the public … yet, nothing was done, no help rendered just a man murdered. In broad daylight.
I have lived in New York during it’s more overtly racist times, so being racially profiled is nothing new. Now as a mother, I am tasked with “terrorizing” my children with the knowledge of racism and that they could be killed just for being black!
As the mother of two sons, I live in constant fear for their lives — this should not be!
As mothers/persons of color we live in a perpetual state of fear and stress, is it any wonder the particular diseases prevalent among the demographics.
According to the polls, white women continued to vote for Trump. The same demographic that voted him into office before. After all his disdain for women, and others he deems beneath him. More men shifted their votes toward Biden.
What should these numbers tell us? Is it that white women are unsympathetic to the plight of other women and or persons of color? What of Latinos voting for Trump? Just bizarre, I will never understand the thinking behind their support of him.
It is time America, time for this nonsense to STOP! There needs to be zero tolerance for killing and maiming people of color.
Too many past politicians, too many promises, all left empty, abandoned by the wayside. Once the voting posturing is past, the down-trodden are forgotten and history keeps repeating itself.
Today, another dream emerges from its chrysalises and hope spreads its wings.
We watch warily and we wait for the dawn of that new day. We wait for the promises to be fulfilled.
We wait for healing to begin.
We wait for the killings to end … we wait for justice.
We are watching you America.
Is that a change I see coming … or just more wishful thinking?
