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4 Huge Changes After A Spiritual Awakening
#3: Loss of friends
Since I began my spiritual journey, so much has changed. Sometimes I sit here and think, “Holy moly! Things are different.” I am a new person in a new world. Every area of my life has changed since embarking on this adventure. Below I outline four monumental changes.
Isolation
Before my awakening, I was the life of the party and was out 4 to 6 days per week, living it up in the city. I was tearing up the mean streets and rarely stayed home. When I wasn’t out partying, I was traveling. I was rarely alone; there were always people around me.
After my awakening, I began to crave my alone time and quickly went from an extrovert to an introvert (gladly). I became obsessed with learning, researching, and journaling. I rarely answered calls and deleted all social media. I had never been so happy to be in isolation — and away from it all.
This isolation led to a strong relationship with myself. I fell in love with myself and did not require anyone else to make me whole. Partying, drinking, drugging, and sexing no longer gave me fulfillment (though they never did before). Today, I am even more isolated from friends and family. I am living in Asia; I am content and at peace.
Empathy
This is perhaps one of the most significant changes I have experienced since my awakening. Although, before, I was sensitive to the feelings of others, it has grown to another level. Because of this change, I am careful where I go and who I surround myself with.
If I am in a crowd, I can quickly and easily pick up the energies of others. This can be viewed as a blessing and a curse. If there is nervousness, anger, or any other negative energy — I quickly exit the situation. I do this to protect my energy. I have done this many times since my awakening.
I am unsure if anyone else has experienced this with different forms of entertainment. I can no longer tolerate certain shows, movies, or music. If there is a negative vibe, I shut it off. I used to watch horror/thriller movies constantly. Now, I can hardly sit through it before turning them off. This is the same with television shows and music. There are certain artists I cannot listen to.
Loss of Friends
I went from having lots of people around me to basically none. This happened for a couple of reasons. The first is simple; I changed. My diet, my priorities, and even my conversation shifted. I stopped eating meat, no longer wanted to party day and night, and began to speak more positively. I was no longer interested in negative talk, so I shut it down.
Because of these changes, we could no longer relate. So naturally, people began to fall off, and I allowed it to happen. Previously I would have tried to fix it, but this time I let it go. We were no longer in alignment — and that is okay. During this journey, we must make peace with letting go.
Another reason I lost friends is that I cut them off. Once I began my journey, I recognized how many of those people were not true friends. They were users and abusers, and I was a target because I was nice and broken. Those people did not care about me, and I did not care about myself. When I began to heal and love myself, I no longer wanted to entertain those toxic relationships.
Creativity
After my awakening, my hidden talents and gifts emerged. I discovered skills I didn’t know I had. Those talents were hidden in the shadows of grief, depression, and fear. When they appeared, I began to embrace and develop them. The more I leaned in, the more skills I discovered.
My innate creativity led to self-expression. This was important because I previously had issues with expressing myself. I was fearful of the opinions and judgments of others. Today I dress, write, and talk the way I choose. I play by my own rules and need no validation from others.
My creative juices began to flow during my self-love journey. Then creativity led to self-expression. Now, I am a ball of originality and have discovered various talents I didn’t know existed. Creativity is vital because we are all creators by nature. Once you realize your natural skills, you can use them to inspire others and hopefully gain financial independence doing what you love someday.
Final thoughts
I understand that this journey is not easy and can be lonely sometimes. But the beauty is once you continue to evolve, you experience true freedom. You experience unimaginable peace, love, and unspeakable joy.
You start to discover who you really are and walk in purpose. But there is no easy way — we have to put in the work. That means studying, learning, and meditating are ongoing. That means we must guard our energies, control our emotions, and allow our guides to guide us.
Peace and love, Ari
© Ari Love, 2022
