2020 You Need To Change Your Name To 2021

Summary

The author reflects on the personal and global challenges faced in 2020, marked by the COVID-19 pandemic, which has disrupted their educational aspirations, affected their mental health, and led to a sense of uncertainty about the future.

Abstract

The web content is a personal narrative that captures the emotional turmoil and existential crisis experienced by the author during 2020. Initially optimistic about starting university, the author's plans were derailed by the pandemic, leading to a sense of stagnation. The loss of a boss's mother to COVID-19 highlights the widespread impact of the virus. The author, who identifies as a dreamer and a go-getter, has seen their motivation and emotional stability decline, oscillating between apathy and ambition. Despite having basic necessities, the author is acutely aware of the greater suffering worldwide, including homelessness, civil unrest, and mental health crises. The piece concludes with a sobering reflection on the shattered expectations for 2020, a year that was anticipated to bring revolutionary changes but instead has left the author uncertain about the immediate future.

Opinions

The author is disillusioned with the year 2020, which contrasts sharply with their initial expectations for the year.
There is a sense of guilt in sharing personal struggles when others, like the author's boss, are dealing with more severe losses due to the pandemic.
The author's usual approach to life, characterized by determination and hard work, has been undermined by the events of the year.
Writing on Medium, initially a therapeutic outlet, has turned into a chore, leading the author to write only when genuinely motivated.
Despite personal challenges, the author acknowledges their relative privilege amidst global turmoil and humanitarian crises.
The author expresses a deep longing to be with family during these trying times but is restricted by international travel limitations.
The once hopeful vision for 2020 as a year of new dreams has been overshadowed by the reality of the pandemic and its consequences.

2020 You Need To Change Your Name To 2021

Please just go

It’s been a heck of a year. I got a lot of good news at the beginning of 2020. After almost 2 years I was about to get admission to a university that I loved from day one but now it’s just in papers. There are a lot of emails but nothing is happening.

Yesterday My boss told me he lost his mother because of the corona. It just happened and he is an indifferent country I felt so bad about telling him my problems regarding university.

I was always a dreamer, never settled for anything. The “Ariana Grande” song ‘7 Rings’ that song is kind of how I live my life. If I want something I will work my ass off to get it. No matter how many years it takes but I will get it. But this year my inspiration is 0. There are days when I don’t wanna do anything and there are days when I want to conquer the world. My emotions are not stable, I am happy but I am sad. I don’t know what is happening anymore.

Sometimes I just want to run from everything and hug my parents and normally I would have done that but I am in a different country and I am “not allowed” to go back. I started writing on Medium daily and I liked it for a few weeks but then it felt like a work or job to do and Medium was an escape from everything going around so I decided to write when I feel like writing rather than just putting stuff up there without no meaning.

On a serious note, I am healthy, food, a place to live, some savings but some people are seriously on road right now, countries are having civil wars or border disputes. It is just not normal or pandemic anymore, people are committing suicide, some people are having nervous breakdowns.

2020 was supposed to be a revolutionary year with a new decade, new dreams but now I don’t know If I will be able to see the next day or week or month.