11 Seconds

Summary

The website content is a poem titled "11 Seconds" by Julia Appa, which reflects on the emotional turmoil and introspection during the final moments of a relationship.

Abstract

"11 Seconds" is a poignant poem that captures the raw emotion of a person questioning their partner's love and feeling the pain of unreciprocated feelings. It unfolds over eleven seconds, symbolizing the fleeting moments that can define the end of a relationship. The narrative transitions from hopeful remembrance of past joy to the stark realization of emotional distance. The speaker confronts the dissonance between their partner's current detached demeanor and the vibrant connection they once shared. As the poem progresses, the speaker moves through stages of denial, longing, and the painful acceptance that their relationship is over. The poem concludes with an intense desire to reclaim lost time and emotions invested in the relationship, highlighting the profound sense of loss and the need to let go.

Opinions

The poet expresses a deep sense of longing for a connection that no longer exists.
There is a palpable feeling of betrayal and disillusionment as the speaker realizes their partner's affection may have been insincere.
The poem suggests that the speaker has grown and changed, now viewing past memories with a sense of finality.
The speaker's emotional state transitions from hope to despair, reflecting the complexity of processing a breakup.
The poem conveys the universal experience of wanting to erase the past when it no longer serves a purpose in the present.
The author hints at a retrospective understanding of their emotional state, recognizing that the poem was written before they had experienced a breakup, adding a layer of innocence and foreshadowing to the piece.

A Poem

“Do you love me?”

1 I breathe 2 my heart’s pounding 3 he doesn’t look away but his eyes look different 4 I know his lips won’t smile 5 if he says “Yes” it’s a lie because he has waited too long to say something

“Do you miss me?”

There was a time his eyes were filled with joy his lips weren’t able to cover his teeth because that’s how happy I made him

his fingers resting in my neck kissing me his answer his way of saying that I was stupid for even asking

without doubt

6 thinking about the past seeing memories flashing by means knowing it is over expecting a goodbye

7 over

8 over lying on my tongue doesn’t feel right over turning into my hands looking at my palms doesn’t feel right

9 I want him to take my hand he doesn’t move I feel my eyes fill up making him blurry just like the vision I had of him I thought I can know for sure

10 suddenly I can’t bear his presence I wanna close my eyes and rip out all of my lashes making wishes stupid wishes but the air won’t be thicker and kissing him wouldn’t taste the same

11 I wanna scream so loud I forget there are words lying in my mouth for someone who knows everything

I want all of my secrets back I want all of my minutes and hours back all of my laughters

all of everything if now I mean nothing to him.

Thank you for reading! Let me know what you think of this one. It’s been a few years since I wrote this and I believe I also wrote this before I ever experienced a breakup, which still fascinates me.